Defeat

Hello!

I admit it. I've been defeated. As hard as I've tried...Vector Geometry just got the best of me. I sat down to really work at the assignment. I sat, and I read everything thoroughly (no skimming here!)...and I tried to understand...I read again...tried question 1. I got through part a and then part b. I look at part c...what the fuck. I read back on my notes...nowhere to be found. My heart rate goes up, I'm starting to sweat. I re-read the section. I see everything about parallel lines, but nothing about perpendicular lines. SHIT. Is there something I'm missing? Do I have to read between the lines? I'm still sweating. Now, I'm all flushed and I can just FEEL my hair frizzing.

And this is only question 1 of assignment 1.

Then I try to calm myself down, skip part 1c and see how question 2 goes. I go to section 'a'...WTF. The notes don't tell you how to figure out components of a vector from two points in 3-dimensional space...it just starts talking about adding vectors in 3-dimension. My heart rate goes up again...I start sweating again.

FUCK.

You know what? This vector geometry class isn't worth getting panic attacks over. Yes, I paid about $400.00 for the class; no, I will not get my money back if I drop it. But I could have been working on the presentation I have to do this coming week for my 4th-year Psychology honours seminar class in the 1.5 hours I spent hacking away at the material for this math class...and I don't need the class for anything! And you know what's positive about all this? I'm not going to let this "defeat" reflect back on me. Math should not be offered as a "Distance Ed" class anyways...at least not this class. And I know I'm good at math...really good at math. And I'm not going to let this "defeat" make me think I suck at math, because I don't. As for what I said before about wanting to be a doctor and not being able to tackle Vector Geometry...well I tackled it alright, but it kicked the shit out of me. And I'm smart enough to know that letting go of something does not mean giving up. I'm letting go of the idea that in order for me to succeed as a physician, I'll have to know everything, and be good at everything. Sure a few people are genius, but a very rare few can do everything. For example, I'd like to see my oral surgeon give me an oil change, swim the English channel, bike the Tour de France, and paint something to be hung in the Louvre.

Another positive thing: it's OK to not be good at EVERYTHING :).

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

Two-faced math

Hello!

I'm a procrastinator. You see it in almost everything I do. When waking up, I procrastinate getting my ass out of bed. When I have an assignment due, I wait until the last week, day...sometimes even hour to hand it in. They say that you accomplish 90% of your task in the last 10% of time you were allotted to complete it. And I believe it! However, if we never had due dates, I don't think anyone would accomplish anything. And I don't mean due dates that are imposed on us, but also those we impose on ourselves. For example, committing to pay your credit card off by this date; completing this assignment by this date, etc. And then you do what it takes to get that goal accomplished.

I'm struggling with completing a math assignment. And this really bothers me. It's a first year class, and I have NEVER had an issue with math...EVER. From elementary school to Calculus, math has been my friend and has always come easily. So I'm signing up for courses, and I figure to raise the good 'ol GPA I could take a math class. Already did calculus, so I look through the course list and see, "Vector Geometry and Linear Algebra" and sign up for it the day before the revision period ends. I figure, piece of cake...triangles...trig...no problem. Last Sunday I actually open my notes to start on an assignment due tomorrow...and that is the hardest freaking shit I have ever seen in my life!! This should not be classified in MATH, but in PHILOSOPHY!!! There are no numbers ANYWHERE!! It's all relations! Like, if line AB is half the size of BC, then prove blah blah blah about AC...WTF?! So, I'm really struggling because it's not like following rules and numbers like math is SUPPOSED to be, but more like the philosophy behind it all...which like I've said, should be called "Philosophy of Mathematics" and neatly classified in the department of Philosophy. Not to mention that we briefly touched on it in grade 10 I think...that's like over 10 years ago!! So, I'm all stressed out, and my hair is awry and my face is flushed because I'm so FRUSTRATED...I'm still on section 1.2...So I was going to drop the course because I don't need it, and it's stressing me out and making me doubt my intelligence.

But then I paused. Took a deep breath. Cleared my head. Thought. How can this class be a positive thing in my life? What's positive about this class? If I slow down and actually read the notes instead of skim them and think I know everything (which I'll admit I'm guilty of doing...) I should understand it. And if I still don't understand it, there will be resources elsewhere I can use (public library, university library, that professor I'm paying to teach the class...lol). And then I think, I'm going to be a doctor...what the hell kind of physician am I going to be that I don't even have the balls to tackle Vector geometry and Linear algebra?!?!?! Not one I'd want to see, that's for sure!! haha So I've decided to stay in the course to challenge myself. I mean, how great will it be to work my ass off for this and score an A+?!?!?! Really fucking great, I think :).

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

iPad

Hello!

So I arrived to work on time today (woo hoo! That's my goal...to always be on time. My mom often says the only occasion I was early was for my birth, as I was 1 month premature, and that I've been making up for it the rest of my life haha), so the day started good. But I've been anticipating the launch of Apple's new "tablet" for a few weeks now, as I was made to understand that it would be Apple's solution to the eReader and compete with Amazon's kindle. So I watched Apple's launch of it...and I want it. I've never wanted a gadget so bad in my life!! My birthday is in May, just when their 3G version gets released (conveniently!), and I'm on a mission. I'm going to get my parents to buy me one for my birthday. It starts at $499.00USD (but I want 32-64GB and 3G network capability...so $729-829USD), so I think it's a bit pricey for a birthday gift...but how many times am I going to celebrate being alive for a quarter of a century?!?!?! (Don't answer that ha ha!) And they can collaborate with my grandparents and uncle...very manageable :D. So I think new technology is always a positive thing. And hey, my blog can't be so serious ALL the time LOL.

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

Treats

Hello!

I haven't really done any "active" positive reminiscing today, but some good things did happen. Work has been difficult for people recently, as morale has been a bit low...people are taking sick days more often, coming in late to work more often, that kind of thing. Today we had  blizzard conditions this morning and most of the highways into the city were closed all day (with good reason!) so those who come from outside the city didn't come into work.

I got to work early (surprising, I know!) because I left really early as I tend to get stuck in the street just off my driveway when there's alot of snow (the perils of living on a bay), and I didn't want to be late as they're really monitoring everyone now. And the head supervisor comes in a few minutes past 8:30am in a super good mood and just really happy and grateful to those who did make it into work today. It was so busy that they asked us if we could work through our lunch break, but you know what? She bought all of us pizza, salad, and breadsticks for lunch. Everyone was so happy! Since we've all been so stressed, and feeling overworked and micromanaged, this small gesture was really needed and appreciated :).

On a side note, I've gained 6 lbs in 2 weeks!! *gasp* Now, I'm going to be honest...eating almost half a batch of delicious oatmeal chocolate chip cookies probably contributed to that, so I'm really seriously considering a yoga class (...and using the gym membership I pay $50/month for!!). Two of my good friends go to a yoga class Saturday mornings (bleh), but the gym I go to offers free yoga, so I'm going to look into that first. See, that's being positive, right?? Even though I gained so much weight in so little time, getting back on the right track is the right thing to do instead of sulking...and eating more cookies lol. (Oh shut up, don't tell me you've never done it lol)

So that's that :)

Thanks for reading!!

~Christine~

We have it better than others

Hello!

One thing I think is important to remind ourselves of, is that things could always get worse than they are. This may seem like a negative thought, but it's more of a reminder to be positive about where you are in life. This is how I keep things in perspective. For example, right now in Haiti, they have NOTHING. And they were hit with another aftershock yesterday morning. Orphanages are still crumbling on top of children; there is hardly any food or water; no shelter; the prison has collapsed, so people sleep in fear of their lives. We could have it worse. There will always be people who are more evil, others who are more petty, selfish, and mean, others who have less money and more debt, others who have less food and water. And I have to remind myself all the time when I feel sorry for myself that this is the case.

However, this is not easy (this blog is called a challenge for a reason lol). It seems to be easier now that I'm not feeling sorry for myself; but had you told me this last week, I may have thought to myself for you to "Fuck off" as I was in pain. And it's ok to feel shitty; it's ok to feel like the world is going to end; it's ok to feel lost and like things can't/won't get better. But keep this thought in the back of your head so that when the dust settles and you can start to see the sun again, you will be able to grasp it.

As most of you know, I LOOOOOVE Bon Jovi! So here are the lyrics to one of my favourite songs, from the "Have A Nice Day" album. It's quite inspirational, and it's one of those songs that lifts me up when I feel down :). You should all have a listen.

"Welcome To Wherever You Are"
By: Bon Jovi

Maybe we're all different but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it's seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different; just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be

Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
And I say welcome…
I say welcome…
Welcome…

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

What You Say = What You Believe = Who You Are

Hello!

One interpretation of positivity: "There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light of one small candle" - Robert Alden

So I have another theory. Or I've reached another epiphany. Sort of. I guess it's the idea of "Mantra". If you repeat something enough, you'll end up believing it, which will ultimately shape who you are. Marketing and advertising use this technique. If you see a commercial enough times, eventually you'll buy into what they're advertising. I'm not gonna lie...there's only so many times I can see a cheeseburger (my favourite!!) on TV before I desperately want one...this is why I hate seeing food commercials while I'm busting my ass at the gym. But I digress.

This is not by all means a new concept. On the contrary, it's a very old concept but one that you've always known and that's stored and buried in the back of your head. So, I've decided to dig it up and explore it further. Like I said above, when you're repeatedly exposed to an idea or concept over and over again, you start to believe it whether or not it's really true. Actually in my "Memory" class, the Professor told us about this study that showed that when people were presented with false evidence of events that happened to them in the past (but really didn't), something like 25% of the people reported to actually remember that occasion! For example, if I photoshopped a picture of you at 6 years old on a hot air balloon ride with your family and showed you that picture (even if it never happened) about 25% of people would genuinely say they remembered the occasion. Memory is a funny thing. And this is scientific evidence that it works!!

Anyways, my point is that if you tell yourself something enough times, you will ultimately end up believing it. How do you think those people on American Idol actually believe they can sing?! lol I bet it's through this concept. So whether we believe it or not, if we tell ourselves something enough times, we will believe it. And when we actually believe it, it will shape who we are. Now with many great things, come great responsibility. This can work in both a positive and negative way. This is how people come to believe they are worthless, even though it is obviously false. I'm not being negative, but realistic. However, since this is a blog about positivity, I'm only going to touch on the positive aspects.

If we wake up in the morning and say, "I'm going to have a great day today" before we even open our eyes, chances are it's probably going to be better than saying, "Ugh, today's going to be total shit". Even if there's a mountain of snow, -40C, or 8:10AM when you wake up, and you genuinely believe that it's going to be a shitty day, repeatedly saying "It's going to be a great day" (according to the above concept) will eventually lead you to believe it's going to be a good day, and because you look at it as such...it probably will be!

So that's going to be one of my mini-goals: regurgitating positive phrases. I'll call it my "Positive Mantra". And I think this is going to be the easiest thing I can do to stay positive; just concentrating on the words and knowing that the feelings and results will occur just because I've put the effort into saying the words. (I should try this with the lottery lol.)

I read this before I posted it, and realized that what I've been posting has been pretty 3rd person - I haven't really gotten into specifics, and I apologize. I'm getting in the groove of this blog thing, and at the same time, I'm trying to be professional about things (not mentioning specific events or people). But I'll try my best. So I think I'm going to start out with small things like, "I'm a good person" and "I deserve [insert here]". Then once I get used to that, I can become a bit more prophetic (about myself, not the world...that's God's job) and say things like, "I will get A+s in all my classes" and "I will be [at this point in my life] by [this time]". But I think I'm going to start with the small stuff first.

Side note: Maybe I should try yoga on a regular basis. Doesn't yoga use mantras? I'll keep you posted on that :).

~Christine~
P.S. I'm going to try and make the posts shorter lol

When one door closes...

Hello!

I've said this before. It's difficult enough being positive on a normal day, but it's damn near impossible to be positive when you're feeling shitty. Now I said damn near impossible...not impossible though. This is where good friends and family come in. When you've fallen and don't want to get up, they'll pick your ass up, make you look at the goddamn sunshine, and make you keep on living you life. And I love them dearly for this. Everyone deserves to have those people they can call at midnight when they're drunk and crying, or when they just have this burst of inspiration and want to share it with someone. This is where I see positivity.

There's this saying everyone knows: "When one door closes, another opens" or "When God closes a door, He opens a window". This is positivity. I like to plan everything. When I was 15 years old, I had the next 10 years planned out; and time and time again, those plans to go shit (And I never seem to learn my lesson! lol). But I need control over things, and planning gives me the illusion that I have control. Even though things don't go as planned, another opportunity (perhaps an even better opportunity!) will present itself. I'm going to take this attitude. Now, it hasn't been easy getting to this place, but it's where I am for now.

~Christine~

Bittersweet

Hello,

Sorry I've been away...it feels like forever, but it's only been 3 days! I'm going to keep this short and bittersweet.  It's easy to be positive when things are going the way you want them to. Monday started off great. I phoned a professor to ask about enrolling in an honours seminar course, and thought, "I'm a great student. Even though I'm not interested in doing a Master's degree, they should take me, and it'll be super interesting. It'll be great!" So I phoned the Department head, he said he didn't have a problem with it, then I phoned the prof and he arranged so that I could take it. So that was good...the day started off great!

Then I received some very bad news late Monday afternoon. I'm not going to get in the specifics, because I'm not entirely sure if it's set in stone, or just a minor setback. This is why I'm not completely freaking out. The thing is, I feel like complete and utter shit. And to tell you the truth, it's really REALLY hard to be in a positive frame of mind when you're feeling THIS shitty. All I want to do is crawl in a hole, and wallow. Pathetic? Definitely. Yes, I know that billions of people have it worse than I do. I know that I'm doing pretty well in my life. Am I happy? No. Am I satisfied? No. Why not? Maybe it's because I grew up in a privileged society where we are used to getting what we want. And right now, I don't have what I want. Could it change? For sure. But right now...it sucks. And it's really hard being positive. This is not easy. What can I say?

The above paragraphs were written Monday night, and I didn't publish it because I didn't think it to be appropriate for a "Positive" blog. I broke down...and when I say broke down, I mean flat on my face in a pile of poo lol (OK, maybe not literally). I went as low as I have ever gone. Could I have gone lower? Yes. But I hit a new low Monday night. But I got through it. I'm holding onto the positive thought that things will turn around and that whatever is happening right now is just prefacing what will happen in the future. This is a positive and optimistic thought, and I'm proud for harbouring it right now. But as much as I'm thinking about this, I'm still in pain. As I know I'm one of the most privileged people in the world (I live in Canada...enough said), and I have water, food, shelter, peace, and I'm not physically disfigured (some say even attractive), I'm healthy, I have a loving family and great friends, I'm University educated, it still hurts. What's worse, is that I feel shitty for even feeling like this, despite my relative good fortune.

Things have changed the past few days. An earthquake hit Haiti, and people are in disaster. Makes me think I have it damn good over here, as miserable as I think I am. So, what I think I'm going to take away from this, is the feeling of gratitude. Being grateful for what I have, the opportunities I'm presented with, and the freedom I have as a Canadian citizen.

I apologize if this is a rather somber post, and not as short as I promised, but I hope the silver lining is at least evident :).

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

Missing glove

Hello!

So today was relatively short. I woke up super late (1:30pm) and I really prefer to wake up earlier (notice how I didn't say "I don't like waking up late"? I'm getting good at this! haha), but I went to bed late too, so whatever. Then ate, and was planning on going to the gym for 4:00pm...I ended up falling asleep again and not waking up until 6:00pm! Crazy!! I guess I was just super tired. Anyways, I had plans this evening to go bowling with some friends I used to work with (and one I still work with) at 9:00pm. So, I arrive there, walk up the stairs, say "Hello" to everyone, and then realize that I lost one of my new leather gloves on the way in. So, I walk back the way I came, down the stairs, and back to my car. No glove to be found. I start thinking, "SHIT!!" Then I take a deep breath, calm myself, then I think, "Don't worry, you'll find it. It still exists in the world, so it's around somewhere. You'll find it!" So, I walk back to the bowling alley, searching the floor as I go, and then I found it! But where it was, you couldn't see it going the other way. So that's what happens when you're positive...things tend to go your way. :)

Do I think I would have found it had I been freaking out and not being so positive? Nope. I'm finding that my stress level has actually gone down a bit, as I do tend to freak out about things that go awry. The Faculty of Medicine at the university sent out emails Nov.9/09 to inform us applicants about changes with regard to the reference letters, but they entered my email address wrong in their system and I never received it...I found out 2 days before the letters were due, and a good friend of mine had to calm me down because I almost had a panic attack. Had I originally thought, "I'll figure this out in the morning and inform them what happened," I wouldn't have had that stress to begin with, and probably would have slept that night.

So this is what I learned today:

1. Things tend to go your way when you think positively

2. Stress levels also decrease when you engage in positive thought

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

What is it to be positive?

Hello!

Today was interesting. Well, not really, but different from my usual Saturday. I don't normally work on Saturdays, but I worked for 5 hours which was awesome because weekends are double time :) yippee!! Anyways, I mostly had to call back people who left voicemail messages, and one of them was very difficult. Like, antagonistic, argumentative, uncooperative...ugh...he makes my blood pressure rise just thinking about him. He's Portuguese to boot! So when I was finished with him, I ranted and raved (all the while explicitly describing where he can shove certain phallic-looking objects...to which one person proclaimed that I'm a horrible individual...but I digress), and forcefully announced, "I hate Portuguese men!...I hate all men!" Not very positive, I know. I will get to the definition of what exactly positive means in a bit. So, I said this whilst waiting for my supervisor to finish something up, and she turns to me and goes, "No you don't. You were all hot and bothered by those paramedics yesterday." And she was right. I don't hate men...even Portuguese ones lol. I actually adore men (as frustrating and impossible they are sometimes lol). Anyways, my point of this little recap is that I think it's OK to rant and let off some steam because, to me, it allows the negative emotion you have inside you to escape, which will then allow everything to balance out. I said right from the beginning that I'm not a rainbows and bunnies and everything is wonderful kind of person. I have a dry and sarcastic sense of humour...one friend has even called me witty! lol

So, here's where I've been contemplating what being positive really is. It seems as though there are two ways of looking at it. The first is to "negate"; this includes words like, "not" "without" "-less" etc. The second is the qualitative meaning of a word. For me to say "I hate" there is no negative term in that statement...technically it's an affirmation. However, its quality is extremely negative. A weaker version of "I hate" would be to say "Do not like"...which is negating the term "like". So how would I express this emotion? I can't deny it exists...I can honestly say I really did not care for the individual I had to deal with today. Do I ignore that it happened? I had a coworker behind me tell me to just let it go, and even have a drink when I got home (I had two when out for dinner tonight haha). Maybe that's something I have to learn...I'm not one to just "let it go"...to me that's just like giving up. I like to figure things out, and have solutions and such. So what do I do? This is what I did: I took a deep breath...crossed him off people to call, then continued working. And thought, "I'm just going to continue with other people and move forward." (which is positive, no?) So I still have to figure out how to deal with these negative emotions. I tend to bottle things up and then they explode weeks, sometimes even months later...sometimes, I let things drag on and fester. So this is something I have to figure out: how to be positive about negative emotions.

Oh I just thought of something! How about, "I like other people much better than I like him"? That's positive, right? Wow, I think this may actually be possible...I was starting to doubt whether this being positive thing would actually work, and it looks like writing the blog is working! Woot woot! *happy dance*. So it looks like there is another thing I have to figure out about myself, but I still have 355 days to go.

Thanks for reading!! :)

~Christine~

Fresh faced

Hello!

So this is day one. In order for me to be at work on time, I need to leave the house no later than 8:05am...I can make it on the nose if I leave at 8:07...but any later is really pushing it (I would need green lights the whole way and close to zero traffic...aka room to speed lol). So, I woke up at 7:40am...this gives me enough time to wash my face, brush my teeth, moisturize (it's in the -30s here right now, so if you don't moisturize your face is in trouble), get dressed, get coffee, breakfast, and lunch ready. Note...this does not leave time to do make up. I don't really worry about wearing makeup at work too much, since there's no one there (aka men who have dating potential...sorry guys) I'm really trying to impress. So, I'm pretty impressed with myself in that instead of thinking, "SHIT! I don't have time to do my makeup!", I thought, "I'm going to work clean and fresh faced today!".  So that was my very first "positive change" of the day :).

So out the door I go, all "fresh faced" and moisturized. Now, another reason I don't worry about makeup is because I work at a call centre and don't see the public face to face...I just talk to them over the phone. And let's face it, if you have a good conversation voice (which I do most of the time) you'll sound relatively attractive on the phone. So my supervisor approaches me first thing this morning and asks if I can cover breaks at the reception desk. This includes two 15 minute breaks, and one hour-long break. I agree to go, but begin feeling a bit nervous since being "fresh faced" is not necessarily my best face lol but it's not really that busy anyways...it's mostly just general clerk work and filing, with the odd person who drops in during the day. Because I was just covering, I did my own work. Please keep in mind that I almost NEVER work at reception.

So while I was covering the lunch break, a supervisor from another section of the floor runs up to me and tells me that I have to escort upcoming paramedics to a section of the building...WHAT?! Here I am thinking I probably won't have to see anyone (or anyone won't have to see me) outside my normal work environment, besides the odd 60-yr old man who drops by (usually because he went to the wrong floor), and they're telling me I should expect paramedics to drop by?!?! With me only wearing my "fresh-face"?!?!?! OMG..FML. Normally I would freak out internally (I don't like it when my mental plans get ruined...another thing I'm working on), or create some excuse and have someone else do it, but I didn't. So, here's what I did...all in tribute to this resolution and because I really mean to be a more positive individual. I grabbed my shiny pink lipgloss (the only form of makeup I had in my purse), puckered it on, slapped on a smile, and sashayed to the door to escort the six super-hot paramedics to their patient. I told myself, "Christine...this is all you have to work with right now...so WORK IT." And I did. It was a good day.

What I learned today:

1. Do your best with what you've got (This is something we all know, but sometimes don't really follow)

2. Prepare yourself so that "what you've got" is what you actually want to work with

3. You never know what's going to happen, or who you're going to meet, so always be prepared

Thanks for reading!

~Christine~

The beginning...

Hello!

My name's Christine, and like many people I have made resolutions for 2010. Of course there's the usual: lose weight, get healthy, hit the gym, blah blah blah. BUT I've decided on something I think may be rather unique. I've decided to be all about positivity this year. I think being positive provides great benefits for the mind, body, and soul; by being positive you decrease stress and ultimately your body profits as well. Now, I don't mean being annoyingly optimistic and looking at everything through rose-coloured glasses. But simply looking at things in a "glass is half full" kind of way.

Now, I've discovered that this can be really challenging. It's January 7, 2010 and I've already broken this resolution haha. But I think that's ok as long as I recognize it, learn from it, and move forward (this is like all mistakes...right?). For example, I can be a pretty clumsy person. I mean, while I was getting my legs sugared, my esthetician told me I had a few bruises on the back of my legs...I can honestly tell you I have no idea where they came from, but I tend to bump into things and randomly trip or fall up the stairs every now and then haha. Anyways, one of my resolutions this year is to be less clumsy...see there I go again! Upon thinking about this, I realized that thinking it as "less clumsy" is classified as negative thought! So, I need to think about it as being "more coordinated". See how this is more difficult than I thought??

Despite all the specific resolutions, what I'm really getting at (and I think everyone else who makes resolutions is getting at as well) is to be a better person. I think that by examining my thought process (can you tell I'm a psych major? lol), I can really begin to look deep within myself and make the personal changes that I feel need to be made. So I think writing this blog will help. During the day I'll attempt to take note of things that seem relevant, and then post the results here. I guess this is my own little, mini-research project haha.



So this is the first blog I've ever written, and I really don't know what I'm doing. I know you generally need to stay on topic, but it's not really like a journal or diary (or is it?). I mean, that you don't really talk about people or specific events that concern people because what if those people are reading? Then you have drama...best to leave those things in the actual diary. Anyways, as you have probably guessed, I do tend to ramble, and my entries have the potential to be long. But this will probably (hopefully!) be the longest post, as I don't want to bore anyone...and you didn't sign up to read a novel! lol


I hope you enjoy, and thanks for reading! :)


~Christine~